We spent years together, talking, laughing, bitching, yet I never thought that it would come to this point; I mean I thought it was normal to get annoyed with your best friend…. you know? - But  apparently it’s not a sign that you’re going to be together forever. I’ve gone past the point of caring, comforting or even acknowledging her, she makes me furious, and not in a sarcastic way either. I can’t even remember the last time any of my friends comforted me. They have never even asked me how I am. Time to get new friends me-thinks. 

Everything I see nowdays puts a negative message in my head, I try to read all those horoscopes/astrology things but nothing seems to be accurate. I keep thinking maybe I’m an individual and that’s a good thing, although sometimes I would like to feel like a part of the “normal” crowd. y’know what I’m talking about, the pretty girls, the skinny girls, the photogenic nation, but somehow, somebody up there decided that I don’t fit into any of those catagories. I understand that it’s impossible to feel 100% happy with your life..but I cant help feeling that there is nothing out there for me, whether it’s feeling like the “ugly friend” of a group, or being the “whale” in a swimming class - I always find a way to stand out, and for once standing out doesn’t seem like a good thing.

- So I’m moving on from this funk that I have somehow got myself into & I’m going to celebrate the fact that I’m pretty much a loner :)